INNOCENT THOUGHTS OF A GUILTY MAN

I can't date, no I just can't date, Because I've been in love before, so I can't wait. Because I know the feeling that I get, That tingling in my chest, The thumping of my heart, the hiccup of my breath. And that's how I should feel when I see her for the first time, Otherwise we playing games, this is just rehearse time. Stuck at dinner conversations feeling like rehearsed lines, Wishing I could reverse time, girl this is theworst time. That's why I believe in love at the first sight, Waiting at the airport trying to make my first flight. Standing at security, caught her looking curiously, The prettiest young lady, smile made of purity. Just hoping that she would be heading towards the same gate, Had to be destiny for us to book a flight on the same date, Trying to justify, the twinkle in her pretty eyes, She caught me looking once, twice, okay maybe three times. Knee high boots, tight jeans, and a pea coat, Looking hot as hell when it'...

Sitting all alone on the phone conversation with Momma, Told her how I feel about chasing my dreams, You see the closer that you get to touching the sun, The other stars to reach are further than they seem, What do you mean my son? The concerned look on her face I said I'm only getting older take a look at my space. I realized all this on my last trip home, You see I've only had a place I never had me a home, And everybody moving on, my brother got his own, Kids calling him daddy, boys getting grown. Proud to watch him live and be a family man, As I young boy I dreamed about making family plans, Vacation to Disney World and hold my families hand, Morning bus chronicles and overpriced mini-vans. But there ain't no love in the heart of city, Hollywood is full of glamour but the road ain't pretty, But no pity, after all, I'm in love with the grind. Alone in my apartment with my heart and my mind, I made goals for myself, and I ...

Damn it feels good to be in love again, Loving when, we get to kissing, and touching, and making love again. Come on in and close the door let me help you take your coat off, I know my baby been working all day go ahead and take a load off. You so soft, rubbing your shoulders while dinner cooks, Give you time to relax, read some pages from your book. She's nerdy and I like that, thick glasses and thick asses. Yoga pants and baby tee I squeeze it right as she passes. She laughs it’s, not disrespect because she likes it, She put on them tight ass pants because she knows her man will like it. Excited, glad to have her home for the weekend, Give her whatever she wants, good food, and conversation. And don't forget the sensation, the sexual stimulation, Like I'm the only brother with oil, she has to fill up at my station. But I gotta practice patience, because she loves it when I chase, Romance requires some flirtation blowing kisses to her face...

I remember, I remember love, yeah how could I forget? I remember every memory of passion and pain, Sit back and reminisce. I remember you came to town in the fall, At at a time when my heart was coldest. And you warmed it up right from the start, Had me feeling like baby you can hold this... And I knew that you noticed, And I knew that you know this, Took me back to my high school days, Like girl who do yo go with? Cause you somebody I can grow with, You somebody I can show it, Show you the real me, Cause I know you can feel me, Fell in love so quickly, and Yeah we both guilty. The love too appealing, Alone with a broken heart, Hoping you can heal me, Take your time keep it real please. If this is real please, don't let it fall apart. I just hope we know what we're doing. Can't stop once we start. Remember how used it to feel... You laying in the bed and your head on my chest Remember how it used to feel. Getting chills from the wet of you kis...

This is just the way it is, this is just the way it goes, Ironically my first play was titled, "The Way Love Goes" I guess I knew it then, what I still know now, Love would be tough for me no matter how I played it out... I wish it was different, I wish it had all worked out, You gotta exercise love, and we should have worked out. You know hit the gym, work hard, and get the sweat out, Work out the haters, they nothing to sweat about Then we take it home, take it back to our house.. Hop in the shower, turn up the heat, another sweat out. But you'd rather leave than stay, rather argue and not listen, I've given you so many chances, and all you do is dismiss them But that's just the way it is, yeah that's just the way it goes, You go from lovers and friends, to bitter and hateful foes. Like do you have amnesia, did you lose your memory? Cause it seems like you forgot,  it seems you don't remember me? I was the one you could always call, I...