INNOCENT THOUGHTS OF A GUILTY MAN

More than 15 years have past and we both went on living our lives, Yet she's still one of my favorite past times, and she remains on the list top five. She's the type of girl you meet when you're too young, and there's still a lot of living to do And there's still so much to learn & you're too dumb. so you move on not realizing what you'd lose. I would try to be faithful, but I could never say no to her, So every time I would return home, I'd go running straight back to her. I would tell her you got me, baby you got me, baby you caught me, She would shake her head and disagree, cause when you leave you will have forgot me. And she was right of course, cause as soon as I'd leave I head right off course. And find myself with my new girl, the one my family loved the most. The one you go to meet Mom with, the one you go to the Prom with, The first girl you ever tell you love, the first girl you ever make love with. That kind of love sti...

It's been five years since I have been in a relationship. Five years since I could even relate to sh*t. Five years since I heard I love you,  Or baby you the best, or there's nobody but you.  It's been five years since that break up, Five long years since we walked away, And I aint mean to take this long to love, But life just always gets in the way.  Year one, I only wanted fun, You know hit and run, get it in and I'm done. Then I'm back in the clubs looking for another one, When she asks my name, I just say I'm the one. Phone full of numbers, pocket full of rubbers, I guess you could say I didn't really care, I just knew I was hurt, so I would go out and flirt, To replace the thought of her not being here. Then year two came and not much changed, I was still living fast in these streets, Thinking time would change her mind, And we'd fall back in love when we meet. But that meeting never happened, Cause baby ...

He had entered into the rightful age of 31 with wide eyes and big hopes, the same as all the other years. Although, much like those years before, he was becoming more cynical about the possibilities of love. It wasn't just the fact that it had alluded him for some time now, but more so the fact that he had just the same alluded love.  As if they reached an agreement, each armed with their own top divorce lawyer of sorts. Love would leave and take all of its empty promises with it, and he would walk away and take everything that he brought with him. His new focus would be his career. Cliche to say the least as many 30 somethings clinged to the one thing that they felt they could control. "This is simply what life is for me", he convinced himself. Some find love, some walk alone. He reminded himself that some men are not meant to be happy, they are meant to be great. Something he heard on a television show that he tried to assimilate into his own life. So he dive...