INNOCENT THOUGHTS OF A GUILTY MAN

He stared at his computer wondering where he wanted to go next, as if he really didn't already know. Perhaps he would just peep at her page and check in on her. After all, she was definitely checking in on him. "Maybe I should do something wild", he thought. Post a racy picture or make an ambiguous statement that might draw her out of her cave and back into his life. It's ironic how sometimes the one person you want to speak to the most, is the one person you promised yourself you were not going to speak to at all. Like an epic stand off in the old western days, both of you hands on your gun, waiting for the other to move. It's petty for sure that two people who have feelings for each other result to these kinds of games. But this was life in the now. Sneak dissing and sub-tweeting, being seen just by all in hopes that you are seen by the one. He types the first few letters of her name into the search box and sure enough she pops up in the screen. Her pictu...

Sleep less, work more, But work with a purpose what do you work for? No pain no gain, so let it hurt more. What is your vision of success what do you search for? They say life is short, but I say is life is long. Which puts an emphasis on decisions, and knowing right from wrong. Although the wrong decisions can teach you the right lesson. Cause learning from mistakes is always the right blessing. Beware of false prophets, those who are teaching lies, You need a teacher's heart and a student's eyes. So you can understand the question, but also have the answer, And walk what you talk and know what you stand for.... And just because they let you down don't mean you let up, And if the world knocks you down, then you just get up, Can't see the future looking at the ground so get your head up, And if the world pissing you off, good, let's get fed up. Cause when your back is up against the wall that's when you really see, What you are made of and ...

            Remember when love used to be easy? Like kiddy love. Kiddy love was the best. You'd see a pretty girl on the playground and she had on blue shirt and blue was your favorite color so you liked her. And you would go speak to her and by the end of recess that was your girlfriend. You guys go together now. And your buddies would ask you, "why do you like Tiffany"? And you'd respond, "her hair looks good in a ponytail". And they'd all agree with you and that was love. Now it's like you say you like a girl and there are sooo many boxes to check off. Does she have a job, what are her goals, did she go to college, what is her stance on gun control, is she a democrat or a republican? And I'm still over here in kiddy mode like, "I don't know, but she looks great in a sundress".       My issue is that I always pick the most difficult situations to try in fall in love. Whether the person is emotionally unavailable or the ph...

Sitting in the bar one night having a conversation with a pretty girl, Heard a question that was all too familiar, she asked, So how come you’re still single, as she looked me dead in my eyes, Like she was suspecting lies, but to her very surprise, I was drunk enough to tell the truth... Are you player, her follow up question? Rightfully asked as my charm would make that suggestion, But honestly I say, I'm not unlike any other story you've heard before Much like any man that's been hurt before I've developed a system that will help me avoid the pain Never fall for a woman I could actually obtain So I keep the good ones far at a distance, I'm talking this is LA and that is New York That way things have a reason for falling apart Gives me an excuse for never sharing my heart So most of the girls I spend time with in Cali, Are about as deep as the rain fall. That is to say they are shallow. She smiled, laughed a bit, she knew it ...