INNOCENT THOUGHTS OF A GUILTY MAN

I can't even explain how much you be on my mind, You probably think it's never cause I never give you time, And I never have the time, that's me usually lying, Cause I'm lying in the bed next to some chick and I'm lying. Talking bout all the places to see, all the things we can do, Knowing that all of these things I'd rather be doing with you. But she ain't hit me up so I ain't hitting her up neither, It's like I need you to give me purpose, feeling like Justin Bieber. Staring at your number in my phone like I might delete her, But I might get drunk and lonely and I'll know I need her. Missed call, missed call, I see them but I'm sorry, It's summer time in Cali' and I'm somewhere at the after party, We're we supposed to Skype today? Damn was that today? But I'm passed out on the couch because I drank the night away. And just when you get too far away where you try and leave me, I reel you back in with good...

Standing on the platform of the subway waiting for my train to come, Watching the crowd move around me, everyone is on the run. Shades over my eyes, to help cover the lies, We avoid contact, no need for interaction in our lives. Took a seat next to a young brother dressed as a male nurse, He said "People always look at me like I should holding a purse". As if the thought was on his mind for sometime which he rehearsed. I said "the people don't know much, ignorance is a curse. Like you gotta sell dope, to be considered to be dope. Media thrives off destruction, no money in selling hope". He nodded his head and said, "My brother you deep, What do you do for a living, I like the way that you speak"? "I'm an assassin with words, a murderer with verbs, A gangster with the nouns, a criminal with a curse. Writing weekly blogs that hopefully shatter the earth, Exposing all that's real until they see my worth". ...

Mama had a baby, Daddy wasn't there, Baby Austin Powers Daddy never cared, Mama tried to raise him, Nanna tried to save him, Brother tried to haze him, Preacher tried to tame him But there was no behaving, Cause lil' brothers raving, Now lil' brothers banging, He got a set he claiming, He got a crew he bang in, He got a block his gang in, Product that he is slanging, He out there fast laning', Couple of girls he lay with, Couple of girls he play with, Couple of girls he stay with, Got two that say they pregnant, One wants to go to the clinic, One wants to be a parent, Little baby on the way, Now he gotta go and make rent, He doubles up his weight, Because he couldn't wait, Pockets getting fatter, But haters start to hate, And bullets start to fly, There's bullets in the sky, He died under the stars, A bullet in his eye, Mama had a baby, Daddy wasn't there, The world is a ghetto, I just hope he's prepared.