INNOCENT THOUGHTS OF A GUILTY MAN

Listening to Tank sing "Girl I can't make you love me". And looking at your picture thinking I can't make you trust me. Living in these streets for weeks and steady hustling, Not making time to see you, I know it kept you fussing. See even though I was just a freshman on campus, Everybody knew who I was, I was the fresh man on campus, Cause of my bigger brother who was a legend on the quad. I arrived to the dorms already having a squad. And I ain't trying to justify the actions I had, But do you know what it's like when every sister who bad, Be like oh you look just like your brother you so sweet and so cool, Do you sing as good as him? Can I holler at you? I mean you try hard as you can, to stick to the plan. Be faithful hold hands, but hot damn look at them. And they be all up in yo class, and flirting with yo ass, And every time they pass, they wiggling they ass. And all your friends they laugh, they know you wanna smash. And I'm t...

Me and all my friends we no fall in love, We just do the drugs and go out to the club. Wildin' in the Uber we might tear it up, We hunting for the girls who like to give it up. Macking in the bar you know how we do. And we like some local stars they all know my crew. What's up girl? What's your name? Where you from? What it do? Yeah I've had a couple drinks, okay I've had more than few. Summertime in L.A. it's summertime in the city And they wearing booty shorts and tank tops looking pretty Tight sundresses and sports bras it's a parade of tig o bitties And she smiling at your boy, yeah I think she wanna get with me. OMG OMG side boob falling out her shirt, LOL LOL all that ass that's in her skirt. I'm a have to go and flirt, I'm a have to put in work. I'm a buy a couple shots, let em know what I am worth. Let's go party at the crib, there's a party at the crib. Go and get them girls right there, we gon' show e...

More than 15 years have past and we both went on living our lives, Yet she's still one of my favorite past times, and she remains on the list top five. She's the type of girl you meet when you're too young, and there's still a lot of living to do And there's still so much to learn & you're too dumb. so you move on not realizing what you'd lose. I would try to be faithful, but I could never say no to her, So every time I would return home, I'd go running straight back to her. I would tell her you got me, baby you got me, baby you caught me, She would shake her head and disagree, cause when you leave you will have forgot me. And she was right of course, cause as soon as I'd leave I head right off course. And find myself with my new girl, the one my family loved the most. The one you go to meet Mom with, the one you go to the Prom with, The first girl you ever tell you love, the first girl you ever make love with. That kind of love sti...

I got this girl pregnant once...yeah hell of a way to start a blog I know, but sh*t I'm just thinking out loud here. I was young, like a sophomore in college at home for spring break. The fact that I got a girl pregnant isn't what's important and or spectacular about this story. What is, is that she never told me. Not until about five years later when we happened to get together and hang out. No she didn't take me on Maury or anything, she didn't pop up at my door step with some child I had never seen before and tell me I was a father. Instead she told me that she didn't keep it. First reaction was how do I know if she's lying?...but I thought about that night....she wasn't. Besides, who makes up that kind of lie? Second reaction was why? She stated how I was in college and she didn't want to ruin my life. How she knew it was just a fling and even though we were serious in high school, she knew we had a lot of life to live and growing up to do. ...

Had a conversation with a friend, she said that nine out of ten, Of the relationships and situationships that couples are in, Aren't even with the people that they want to be with, I had to think for a minute, cause that's some serious sh*t. Cause this is a chick that I got love for and she knows it, Ironically, my heart unavailable for her to go with. She waiting on me to respond but it was such a heavy text, That I had to take the proper time to put it into context. Because the first person you love is often the first person you lose, An immature love, when you were young and confused. And you gave your heart away before you really knew how it worked, Giving up all your love before you even understood all it's worth. So when you got your second chance, to tango with romance, You felt like you had the rhythm, you more prepared to do the dance. But you had a dream, the desire for bigger things, And you tried to take her with you but she don't fit into ...

I remember when I met her, I didn't want to sweat her, Just trying to impress her, Handle the peer pressure. And I had just made varsity, Had to rock my letters, And although just freshman, Attitude suggested fresher, Standing by the locker with her girls, Me, I'm in the hallway with my boys, steady making noise, She was twirling her fingers all through her curls, Giving me the greenlight, so I calmly cleared my voice. And I stepped to her properly, like the school my property Everybody stepped aside, nope, nobody stopping me, Hello baby, what's your name, and how are you? I peeped you over here, chilling with your crew, And I know you saw me too, I gave you the perfect view,  The bees were steady buzzing, I know how girls do, So I know they told you all about me, and how I roll, Bruce Lee Roy of the crew, you know I got that glow. And I was wondering if we can kick it, go hit the mall, Baby you should give me your digits, so I can call. She wrote d...