INNOCENT THOUGHTS OF A GUILTY MAN

She knew he wasn't shit, he's a player and shit, And if she got too close that he would play her and shit, He's only faking like he cares he don't care about shit, Accept for getting what he wants, everything else is just shit. She knew he wasn't shit, but his love was the shit, He be rubbing her whole body with lotions and shit, He fucking her whole soul with emotions and shit, He be cruising through her waters like the ocean and shit, Biblical strokes, like he Moses and shit, He part her legs open and get to stroking and shit. Sending him text messages and he ignoring them shits, Phone calls get blocked, you not important and shit. He playing ball with his boys, he out on the court and shit, Talking bout the girls he fucking like it's a sport and shit. Yet his bad behavior, every day, you supporting that shit, Let him back in ya home like y'all courting and shit. And your girls try to warn you, try to tell you and shit, But she defend him,...

The days are busy and filled with noise, The chaos of the morning rules. My mind is scattered into a thousand pieces, My thoughts travel the world. The television it distracts, The flashing pictures numb me out. But at the end of the day when you can't be avoided, When I finally lay down to rest. That is where I find you waiting for me, It is the silence that kills me, that is where you hide.

He posted in the group, "Are there any good black women left"? And they answered " hell yes, but all you niggas is deaf". It's like we screaming to be heard, but y'all don't ever listen.. No all y'all want is Jordan, you never checking for Pippen. Yeah maybe he not a star, but he be playing his role. He not selling a million shoes, but yet he's rich in his soul. You too caught up in Power, you fall in love with a Ghost, So when he disappear on you, so do your dreams and your hopes, And be like, y'all brothers ain't shit, ya' so quick, To slide up in every girl that be sweating your dick. With your Tinders, and Happn, all you do is swipe, Good girls get left, when them hoes get you right. And you right, them hoes is everywhere, they always there, But we talking about the good ones who act like they don't care. I mean we out here but when we text we can't get a reply, You too busy in the DM's of some terrib...

I remember the first time that I saw her, The first time she ever got close. I remember falling in love with her freckles, Trying to decide which one I loved most. I would spend hours trying to count them, But there was always one I'd miss. I would draw circles with my tongue all around them, There wasn't one I didn't try to kiss. She was my beautiful freckled face baby, She was my spotted Leopard of love, Her body all speckled and amazing, It drove me crazy with every touch. I would daydream about our kids, We'd have a whole little freckled bunch, And we'd argue over the names we'd give, I'd say Cashmere and she'd say "You're nuts", But somethings aren't meant to be, I guess somethings aren't meant to last, But she's still my beautiful freckled face baby, And I reminisce on our spotted past.

Girl I swear I need ya, I could never leave ya, The other girls are previews, and you’re the main feature, You staying in the game, and they can’t make it to the bleachers You got that apple bottom girl, and I’m your favorite teacher Damn you make me hot, nah girl you give me fever, You all up in my blood, nah girl you give me seizures And I can be your Adam, and you can be my eve then And I would follow you right out the Garden of Eden And my pain is your pain, look at us we bleeding, Your love has got me flipping, the floor is now the ceiling, We had that twin tower love, somebody crashed the building. And these are just my feelings, look at how they spilling, My hearts got some blanks, I’m looking for the fill in’s. And any girl will do, step in line and f*cking fill in. You yearn for me like the flower calling for the sun, you reach for me like the ocean reaches for the sand...you are a rose, and I am the rain, waiting to wet your lips with ev...

I wanna fall in love like they do in the movies, Pretty young girl hanging on to the ledge. She was ready for it to end before she knew me, But I got there just in time before she went over the edge. The whole world is sinking all around me, But as long as we're together, we have a fighting chance. Ice water in our lungs and we're drowning, But we'll go down together, two lovers holding hands. I wanna fall in love like they do in the pictures, Just when I'd given up on the idea of falling in love, Your words to me are like the greatest scriptures, And I'm the thief in night trying to steal your heart. For the blues of you, you're my muse it's true, Poetry is the sound of the love we make. I tried to play cool, but I knew it was you A love so real, is too hard, to make fake. I wanna fall in love like they do on the screen, My heart stops as soon as I see you across the room. You and I girl, we make the perfect scene, Music starts...

When she left me, she left me with this memory book, A collection of happiness clothed in love. I torture myself, and peek at how the memories look, She said she made it for me, for me to remember us. It sits in the bottom of my closet, All covered in dirt and clothes, And I wish that I could simply disregard it, A simple task it should be, I know. And yet it stays, in the corner of dark places, The picture of it reminds me of an Edgar Allen Poe Poem. It was like her "Tell Tale Heart" was in the pages, And I could hear it beating while I'm sleeping alone. I've managed to throw it in the trash before, Only to see it escape. While scrounging through my closet floor, I find it back in it's space. How did you get back in here memory book, I swear that I threw you away? Do the lovelorn sleepwalk through the night, Longing for the love of yesterday? I take a trip down memory lane, A wonderfully painful trip. Looking at pictures of happy ghost, W...