INNOCENT THOUGHTS OF A GUILTY MAN

I remember when I met her, I didn't want to sweat her, Just trying to impress her, Handle the peer pressure. And I had just made varsity, Had to rock my letters, And although just freshman, Attitude suggested fresher, Standing by the locker with her girls, Me, I'm in the hallway with my boys, steady making noise, She was twirling her fingers all through her curls, Giving me the greenlight, so I calmly cleared my voice. And I stepped to her properly, like the school my property Everybody stepped aside, nope, nobody stopping me, Hello baby, what's your name, and how are you? I peeped you over here, chilling with your crew, And I know you saw me too, I gave you the perfect view,  The bees were steady buzzing, I know how girls do, So I know they told you all about me, and how I roll, Bruce Lee Roy of the crew, you know I got that glow. And I was wondering if we can kick it, go hit the mall, Baby you should give me your digits, so I can call. She wrote d...

My dear first love, I wonder how you are, I think about you when I look up at the stars The way they sparkle shine so bright, reminds me of how you used to be shining my light, when I was doing wrong, you would help me do right, And when I was gone, you would wait up all night. You would never start fights, always being polite, Damn you look you good too, yo body so tight, And as I lay back in my bed and reminisce Who would ever think  I'd fall in love like this And truthfully, I know you heard about my reputation, He’s a player and he only want sexual relations, F*ck girls and leave em’ without an explanation, And I know there were a lot of other women hating, But you, see you would never pay them any mind And I know there were a lot of other guys spitting lines, And we were so good in the beginning, Felt  like a team and everyday we were winning But times got rough, and things got t...

Out of the last 10 girls that I have previously dated, 9 fell off and their memory has since faded. 8 of the women that I used to be with, I was just happy to be seen with. 7 of the ten was strictly about the sex, And out of the 7 I only cared about 6. 5 of those girls gotta chance to see the real, But only 4 of them stayed, the others couldn’t deal 1 of the 4 was still in love with her X man, So how could she fall in love with the next man? She tried to hide the emotion, didn’t want to let it show, But that love is hard to hide, so go back to what you know. So now that brings me down to 3 girls, 3 special women I allow into my world. Number 3 was a bad one, sex full of passion, Physical love is good, but it’s rarely everlasting. Number 2 was my everything, Her love had me at the mall looking at wedding rings, Even told my mother, said “she could be the one” She just smiled at me and said, “Have patience son”. A mother’s wisdom, I’m glad I li...